ONLY ONE

I am now the proud owner of my own set of glasses, they are thick and are fucking up my depth perception, this shall take some time to get used to.  I got them today and literally wore them for about 30 minutes before I had to go to bed so that I would wake up well rested for my work night.  I gotta say they are very nice glasses, I feel smarter even though I know that I am not smarter due to wearing said glasses, but none the less I still feel smarter.  The funny thing is that they make my eye's look bigger then they really are, like anime eye's.  I AM NOW AN ANIME CHARACTER!!!!!!!!!!

I generally don't talk about my wife in most of my online interactions like a blog, facebook and everything of that nature.  But I have to this time, why you ask?  Because she is fucking awesome, THAT IS WHY!!!!!!!  However let me start this tale from the beginning.

My wife hates when I play Call of Duty: Black Ops due to how angry I get while playing it.  She recently had had enough and hid it from me so that I could not play it and in return she would not get pissed off at how I cuss like a sailor while I play said game.  To be honest I was ok with this because my controller is all fucked up from the many times that I have thrown it to the ground in a blind rage and it now loves to make it so I stop running at random intervals and randomly just pull out my claymore's while I am in the middle of trying to kill someone with my gun.  So to recap, I was alright with it being vanished.  Well yesterday it magically appears, I was happy but I still couldn't play it so the joke was on me at this point, which is fine, what ever.  Well when I woke up from my nap she informed me that she had bought me another controller and all we had to do was pick it up at Best Buy(This was not in my plans and surprised me tot he fullest).  So now I can play Black Ops and she can continue to be mad at me cussing.  Lets hope this time that i can stick to my word and keep the angry words to a minimum.

That's all I really had for you today, I feel like that story really went nowhere, oh well.  DEAL WITH IT!!!!!!

Attila

Oh yes, they are amazing, the guys vocals make me insane.  Plus the speed at which he screams and growls is pretty impressive.

On to other news.

The band that I am in is playing a show in August and to be honest I am excited to finally get back on stage, hopefully we can get more shows around our age range but for now this will do.  I've been noticing that the style of music that they are playing compared to the stuff we will be writing in the future or have already starting writing is completely different.  I am steadily changing them to fit my voice and my style of music, its not intentional but it is definitely happening.  TAKE OVER!!!!!!!!

So I need a new PS3 controller since I have almost fully destroyed my current controller due to throwing it down in fits of rage directed towards Call of Duty: Black Ops.  That game just brings out the complete worst in me and makes me this angry ball of rage and hate, its pretty crazy.  This is like the second PS3 controller I have gone thru, and if you own a PS3 then you know how expensive those controllers, THEY ARE NOT CHEAP!!!!!  Its gotten to the point that my wife has hid the game from me so that i may not partake in its fun/agony.  I WANT TO PLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As of news that is all I have for you know.  I pay rent tomorrow, just thought you should know.

On the Low

Man, so many things have been going thru my head as of latley, things that even I am having trouble understanding and making sense of.  Here is a little known factoid for you.  I have a gagillion things going thru my head at the same time 24/7/365 days a year.  Hell, a lot of times its just an unconcious thought that is gone just as fast as it is thought up, other times it turns into this crazy debate that I end up having with myself and then later on wishing could come true.  Here is oen of the many things that has been going thur my head and that I have actually been giving heavy thought to.  THE END OF THE WORLD!!!!
I consistently wonder if we are truly in the "End of Times", so many things just seem to be so wrong, misplaced and just all around FUCKED up in the world that we live in and im not just talking people wise and the state of humanity.  Like, im talking on an Earthly level, I mean, look at all of the natural disasters that have been happening like earthquakes, sunamis, fires and unatural weather.  Its almost like the Earth is just done and cant even hold itself together anymore due to all of the years of abuse and just ageing in general.  The other thing is that I just feel it, its weird and I cant explain it but I just feel it in my soul, something is on the rise, something is going to happen and there is nothing that we can do but bend over and hope that its over quickly.

The Past

Its kind of a strange and funny thing when you think about it, in one way it helped to shape us into the person that we are today but in another way its this thing that most of us try so hard to forget but always fail to due to the subtle reminders that bring it all back.  Im not gonna lie, I hate when im instantly reminded of those good and bad times.  The good times were amazing and I got to do a lot with people and share my life with another for so long, but then I remember the humiliation I suffered and it kind of tarnishes every thing that was good and pure about it.  Maybe I will never be fully over that person or the things and events that transpired, but one thing is for certain, in the long run it definetly made me who I am today and set the path for everything I have aquired and become.  And if I could go back to that time I would do certain things different but I dont really think that the end result would be different.  In my opinion I have a feeling that it would have turned out that way no matter what, just with different people and a different setting.  Anyways, it is what it is and theres nothing we can do about it.